that's very cool. im sort of the opposite, haha. i go long periods without eating even when hungry, but when i have access to food, ill eat way more than youd expect i could. i believe it has something to do with undead patience...
so it's interesting hearing about your instincts when my own are so sporadic!! thank you for answering.
im so glad you understand. even to this day, my friends are aware that my identity is tied to these "characters", but even they think im not being serious or joking when i say they are me. and it's a little embarrassing to be so serious.
im so happy there's another fictionkin here, by the way. sometimes i feel a bit out of place since ive seen some otherkin circles saying we (fictionkins) are full of it. very glad to see thats not the case and everyone is so nice .
i actually have a sort of disconnect. at least, with how i was portrayed (both male), being born in a female human body, and not identifying as either male nor female right now. i suppose i am also considered nonbinary, but i usually say genderqueer because i dont like the 3rd gender label nonbinary gets
cybertronians as i remember us were technically monogender. it wasn't really a thing until we engaged with humans and they decided some of us were male and some of us were female. certain bots embraced it. most didn't really care. alt mode was significantly more important to identity, and i suppose reformats are the closest to transgender people we had. i was male in the sense that male is considered the default, but i never interacted with humans so as a mech it never effected me. i was me and i was referred to as all jets were. i just wish i remembered what that was.
i have always imagined myself and my family as other people, though i wasn't yet aware of who they were. i would always recall things that never happened, at least not in this life. i also always found a sense of euphoria seeing or being around jets and planes. space. turns out that's because i am one, technically.
ive always known i was born to seek. ive always been incredibly good at finding things. it is bizarre, expecting to have a magical ability that has since been stripped away lol, but im glad that at least remains.
i'm unsure if i ever had a proper Oh! sort of awakening, but with the "fictionality", it took me a while to recognize myself as rook. which is funny, because there was evidence pointing towards it for a very long time. but that may be it, i always felt a connection to the huntsman from snow white, but that wasnt "right". just slightly to the left of him, i suppose. i was fairly young when i discovered twisted wonderland, it took me about 2-3 years to realize i was rook.
however with pharma, it was instant. i was shown ... him (its strange, having a current gender identity that doesnt line up with previous ones, unsure how to go about that. or the fact that any internal turmoil with that is ignored in both medias, lol), and it was like Oh. that was me, once. very odd feeling, and perhaps that is why i'm more defensive of pharma. i was aware of transformers my whole current life, my sister in this life was obsessed with it, but it took me years to engage. i realized at about 15 that i was pharma. i initially believed i was starscream, actually, but that was confusion due to their similarities (same alt mode, similar personality)
i find it a little strange to be scrutinized, and irritating having people nitpick every little action or reaction taken. especially considering the state i was in at the time.
the undeadness is more recent. unsure how to feel about it or really explain ...
i don't fully believe these 'symptoms'are directly caused by my identity, but i suppose it's a way of feeling affirmed; especially after considering being undead for so long. i know that it is probably a separate issue i simply don't wish to acknowledge. it feels easier to say "I am dead, and this is happening because I am dead." . and the fact that i don't enjoy this body as it is.
however, i see your point, and have been fencesitting talking to a licensed doctor for a while. i hesitate, lol. i know that partially, if i take care of my current body better, i could probably solve some of these issues. i suppose part of it is not wanting to, as i see it as part of my identity. but perhaps i am jumping the gun. maybe the two can and should be separate. it is difficult because i feel as if, if i am not dead now, will i ever be? sorry, i'm sure i sound silly.
i appreciate the advice. i have a habit of not taking a step back, despite believing myself rational. thank you, I'll have to think about this.
i'm glad it's something you look back on fondly, even if it ended up not being the best fit for you. it's good that you found something that makes you happier :)
i didn't consider that. i can absolutely understand the discomfort in a sped up aging rate, it must be difficult when you're so aware of it, as a fae. i've sort of come to accept it as part of this particular form, perhaps look forward to it. for obvious reasons. thank you for your insight.
thank you. i'm glad to know my fear of rejection was unfounded that is a bit of a comfort. i've always felt a need to decompose, as if to prove i am what i know i am. sort of like when you tell your mother you're too sick to go to school and she doesn't believe you until you've vomited. but perhaps i'm just very well preserved, haha :). it's very cool to hear that you've worked in a morgue. did you enjoy it? thank you for your kindness, once again.
wonderful art!! very cool quote, good food for thought.
inhale steam. be careful because it's hot.
very cool to hear. im glad you have a space to eat.
thank you for answering.
i love seafood. what is your favourite fish? i like tuna. though, shrimp are my favourite.
thank you for answering.
i love ripping into meat. eating steak with hands is one of life's joys, haha.
thank you for answering.
i also experience the urge to hunt, though i dont because it is not necessary for me to. i do enjoy tracking from time to time, though.
its good to hear that you have a wide palate. do you think you could be a true omnivore, like bears?
thank you for answering!
that's very cool. im sort of the opposite, haha. i go long periods without eating even when hungry, but when i have access to food, ill eat way more than youd expect i could. i believe it has something to do with undead patience...
so it's interesting hearing about your instincts when my own are so sporadic!! thank you for answering.
hello ! welcome ! exciting to see you . ☺☺
really interesting hearing your experiences ... ! do you have a preferred horse aligned food or is it just usual vegetarian options?
im so glad you understand. even to this day, my friends are aware that my identity is tied to these "characters", but even they think im not being serious or joking when i say they are me. and it's a little embarrassing to be so serious.
im so happy there's another fictionkin here, by the way. sometimes i feel a bit out of place since ive seen some otherkin circles saying we (fictionkins) are full of it. very glad to see thats not the case and everyone is so nice .
hello! your profile picture is very cute
i actually have a sort of disconnect. at least, with how i was portrayed (both male), being born in a female human body, and not identifying as either male nor female right now. i suppose i am also considered nonbinary, but i usually say genderqueer because i dont like the 3rd gender label nonbinary gets
cybertronians as i remember us were technically monogender. it wasn't really a thing until we engaged with humans and they decided some of us were male and some of us were female. certain bots embraced it. most didn't really care. alt mode was significantly more important to identity, and i suppose reformats are the closest to transgender people we had. i was male in the sense that male is considered the default, but i never interacted with humans so as a mech it never effected me. i was me and i was referred to as all jets were. i just wish i remembered what that was.
i have always imagined myself and my family as other people, though i wasn't yet aware of who they were. i would always recall things that never happened, at least not in this life. i also always found a sense of euphoria seeing or being around jets and planes. space. turns out that's because i am one, technically.
ive always known i was born to seek. ive always been incredibly good at finding things. it is bizarre, expecting to have a magical ability that has since been stripped away lol, but im glad that at least remains.
hello ! it's nice to see other aliens. welcome.
hi welcome ! i hope you enjoy your time . i relate to wanting to be private on main, lol.
i'm unsure if i ever had a proper Oh! sort of awakening, but with the "fictionality", it took me a while to recognize myself as rook. which is funny, because there was evidence pointing towards it for a very long time. but that may be it, i always felt a connection to the huntsman from snow white, but that wasnt "right". just slightly to the left of him, i suppose. i was fairly young when i discovered twisted wonderland, it took me about 2-3 years to realize i was rook.
however with pharma, it was instant. i was shown ... him (its strange, having a current gender identity that doesnt line up with previous ones, unsure how to go about that. or the fact that any internal turmoil with that is ignored in both medias, lol), and it was like Oh. that was me, once. very odd feeling, and perhaps that is why i'm more defensive of pharma. i was aware of transformers my whole current life, my sister in this life was obsessed with it, but it took me years to engage. i realized at about 15 that i was pharma. i initially believed i was starscream, actually, but that was confusion due to their similarities (same alt mode, similar personality)
i find it a little strange to be scrutinized, and irritating having people nitpick every little action or reaction taken. especially considering the state i was in at the time.
the undeadness is more recent. unsure how to feel about it or really explain ...
i don't fully believe these 'symptoms'are directly caused by my identity, but i suppose it's a way of feeling affirmed; especially after considering being undead for so long. i know that it is probably a separate issue i simply don't wish to acknowledge. it feels easier to say "I am dead, and this is happening because I am dead." . and the fact that i don't enjoy this body as it is.
however, i see your point, and have been fencesitting talking to a licensed doctor for a while. i hesitate, lol. i know that partially, if i take care of my current body better, i could probably solve some of these issues. i suppose part of it is not wanting to, as i see it as part of my identity. but perhaps i am jumping the gun. maybe the two can and should be separate. it is difficult because i feel as if, if i am not dead now, will i ever be? sorry, i'm sure i sound silly.
i appreciate the advice. i have a habit of not taking a step back, despite believing myself rational. thank you, I'll have to think about this.
i'm glad it's something you look back on fondly, even if it ended up not being the best fit for you. it's good that you found something that makes you happier :)
i didn't consider that. i can absolutely understand the discomfort in a sped up aging rate, it must be difficult when you're so aware of it, as a fae.
i've sort of come to accept it as part of this particular form, perhaps look forward to it. for obvious reasons.
thank you for your insight.
thank you. i'm glad to know my fear of rejection was unfounded
that is a bit of a comfort. i've always felt a need to decompose, as if to prove i am what i know i am. sort of like when you tell your mother you're too sick to go to school and she doesn't believe you until you've vomited. but perhaps i'm just very well preserved, haha :). it's very cool to hear that you've worked in a morgue. did you enjoy it?
thank you for your kindness, once again.