#Identity

24 uses

First contact

skyhounds 🌐
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Hello! I'm Hazel, 24 (he/they). For awhile I identified with xenomorphs / aliens, but lately it's evolved into a much more complicated identity that I'd like to explore further. I'm autistic and struggle with a lot of self shaming, which I'm hoping that connecting with this side of myself will help boost my own self confidence. I'm still getting used to talking (typing) about my identity, but it's a mixture of psychological and physical (?), and was most likely brought on by my autism + physical ailments that left me feeling disconnected from humans. 

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"Grilling"

Krin 🌐
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Does anyone remember "grilling"? It seemed to be popular in my Amino days back in 2019, but I haven't found any resources as of recently to use to grill myself with new 'types I am questioning... If anyone is familiar with the concept, could you leave some of those questions for me to read over and think about? 

If it is called something different now (or even previously), could you let me know what as well? So I can dig up more questions to sit on.. 

Achedunoi

The Dreaming Tree 🌐
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Achedunoi. It's a word that I've been carrying with me for years. It's one of the few words from my own world, my own language, that have survived the translation of my experience through Jarin's consciousness. It's also a word that is very special to me.

Achedunoi. In it's simplest form, it is a greeting to one who has been loved and missed, upon their returning. But it's not something that you would use to greet your partner with at the end of a workday. It is used for partings which have weight to them. That last decades, centuries, even lifetimes.  Partings that leave a wound behind.

Achedunoi. I have found the part of myself that has been missing, and I am made whole again.

What's Changed? Acapella Version

Jarin of The Dreaming Tree 🌐
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This song was based on original lyrics, written by me in April 2011: https://www.otherkin.net/posts/whats-changed/

This version was performed acapella by me, to the melody that I originally imagined when writing it.  Yes, that's my actual voice, and sorry for the background noise of the air conditioner and the mechanical keyboard. 

I don't love this version, I prefer the previously posted version set to music and performed by an AI, Suno.  However, I will admit that part of my reaction there is feeling something along the lines of dysphoria when I hear my own voice recorded.  I have a fairly decent singing voice, but I much prefer to share it in live in-person contexts.  Bardic circle around a campfire, for example.  Maybe sometime I'll see you there.

What's Changed?

Jarin of The Dreaming Tree 🌐
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This song was based on original lyrics, written by me in April 2011: https://www.otherkin.net/posts/whats-changed/

However, it was set to music and performed by an AI, Suno.  This allowed me to share it in a format that I simply wouldn't have been able to otherwise, and personally I think this is the best version of the song, and came out remarkably consistent with my original vision for it.  However, I will also be posting an acapella version in my own voice, with the melody as I had originally imagined it when writing the song.  You can find that here: https://www.otherkin.net/posts/whats-changed-acapella-version-de497393/

Greetings and Faelicitations

Alaereth Seriasin of The Dreaming Tree 🌐
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It has been quite some time since I last engaged in writing of this sort. I find myself out of practice, and unsure of what I want to say.

My name is Alaereth Seriasin. I am currently incarnated on a world known to my people as Yyl'Nector.

As Earth reckons time, it has been over a decade since I was last able to make consistent, reliable contact with my host, Jarin. From my own subjective experience, it has been closer to a year, perhaps a year and a half.

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How to Accept Yourself in Your Current Life

Alva Wings 🌐
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When we realize that we were once an intelligent being different from humans, we tend to drift away to those distant times when things were simpler and much different. This happens for two reasons: the previous body had a number of advantages over humans, and we simply already know how to live in that other body. Even in the same lifetime, we may have a more localized situation where, in the face of difficulties, we do all kinds of things to escape back to a carefree childhood. So the fierce rejection of the current body is the same thing, but on a slightly different level. Yes, we were once animals and other humanoids and maybe even nature spirits, but that doesn't devalue the life we have now - it enriches it.

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Past Lives and Current Brain

Alva Wings 🌐
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It is possible that we may sometimes be able to remember past lives as they were, but it would be foolish to argue with the fact that remembering is done through the brain that we have now. This brain has been developing its own associative map since childhood, and, in most cases, this very map will be used to decode the memories of past lives. From my own lengthy experience, I can summarize that the most reliable memories come in dreams. There, you can see images about which the current brain knows nothing, and then find these items in the Wikipedia and marvel at the fact that such things actually existed. If the objects you are looking for do not appear in the World Encyclopedia, the only thing left to do is to draw them… And it is possible that there is a huge benefit to doing so. After drawing some objects from dreams about past incarnations, one can compare them with the data received in dreams by other otherkin of the same type. Sometimes, a memory is triggered by something you have seen, heard, or read. But there's a good chance that such memories are running through our current associative map. When I practiced conscious dreaming some time ago, I discovered that the associative map is very important because disembodied objects often don't have images of their own, and the brain picks the most appropriate one to understand what it is dealing with.

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