#1 - Hello...
it's a bit difficult for me to know what to type, but i'd like to try. hello, i am rook. ive been... human for 18 years. i use it/its and object related terms (think "that thing").
im new to serious kinning, but not the idea of it. most of my kintypes are centered on past lives. or current lives. unsure. i am also a zombie in this life. i am not alive. i don't believe i am? anyway.
i consider all the undead my bretheren.
i am experiencing a heavy dose of shame, but after years of researching the community and grappling with my own feelings, ive decided to indulge.
i am also questioning therianthropy. some sort of rodent, i believe.
lovely to be here.
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Welcome! What made you figure out that you may be undead?
thank you :)
for me it's mostly a mental thing. i am very low energy and even when i was alive i was born with a heart defect. my heartrate rarely breaks 60bpm, and my blood pressure usually stays around 80/60. it can take me a while to respond verbally, and my wounds do not heal. i have also always had a fascination with decomposition. even as a child i would draw myself as a corpse.
movement can be difficult, and i liken that to rigor mortis. i also desire a horde, which is why i believe myself a zombie rather than a ghoul or ghost, as zombies are social creatures. thank you for asking :)
Interesting, it never occurred to me to think about zombies as social beings but it makes a lot of sense!
Howdy and welcome, Rook! I am glad you decided to join here and make a post. There’s no need for shame, especially not at a place like here. I’m curious to what your past lives are, when you’re comfortable enough to share.
hello, and thank you :)
everyone is already very nice.
im very new to attempting to understand this part of myself, so i dont know all the terms yet. but i am pharma of transformers, and rook hunt of twisted wonderland. i am also questioning the lead priest of hellraiser. ("pinhead"). they, rook and pharma, have been such heavy ties to my current identity that i do not have a name outside of them. pharma in particular, i get annoyed and a sense of "wrongness" when interacting with fans that claim to understand what happened.
thank you.
what is your experience?
I am so glad to hear that! (‾◡◝)
It is really cool to meet you, especially because I have seen (the possible) you in Hellraiser before and I am familiar with Twisted Wonderland. I would say I might have similar experiences to you! I have past lives and some that are shown in media, like you mention. Some notable ones are my lives as Alucard (shown in Hellsing) and Boothill (shown in Honkai: star rail). I look forward to your posts and if you have any questions or want to interact then you can always ask!
it's very cool to meet you as well, i feel so welcomed. :)
i know of both hellsing and honkai star rail, but i have not interacted with either. it's lovely to hear that someone else understands.
thank you, youre very kind !
It can be hard to finally indulge in the community. It took me years before I was comfortable! Shame is a powerful weapon, I'm glad you're able to overcome it some! I'm curious about your experiences as a (questioning) rodent, if you're ever up to share them!
thank you <3
it has been hard especially due to the irony culture taking over the internet now. kinning is so 2021, or something.
i am especially questioning prairie dogs in particular. i am a very group oriented, social thing. ive always felt a certain connection to them. i am also simply obsessed with rodentia in general, lol...
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