How I've changed since "canon"

I feel like I'm much more chaotic than I used to be. Part of this might be because following everyone blindly made everything worse and I know that on a subconscious level. I still have some of the same mentalities that I did back then, but some of them are just gone because I feel like I got burned out and am now making up for it.

Does anyone else get this burned out feeling where you did something too much back then and now you just can't do it anymore?