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SensingEvery so often, conversations drift to the topic of people’s energetics. SometimesRead more

Experimental Role Playing as a Means of Self DiscoveryI got into a discussion a while back with someone who was wondering about ways toRead more

The Perils of RememberingFirst, you will know sorrow. And not just any sorrow, but the longing sorrow thatRead more

Remembering – When Waking up hurts(For Rialian, who always was a godsblasted catalyst) I suppose I should startRead more

How Much is Too Much?: Tolerance, Relativism, and the Slippery SlopeThe Buddhist ideal is the Middle Path. Although I am not a Buddhist myself, IRead more

Reflections on WakingAt about 1:30 am on the morning of April 18th, 2002, I discovered the OtherkinRead more

Questioning SanityI think there’s been some reluctance in the online Sayuneldi (Otherkin) community to point fingers at anyone for being self-deluded, because a) we’re all considered deluded by the average person on the street; b) we’re afraid of scaring off the newer folks on the lists or the ones just Awakening to something real in themselves; and/or c) in times past there had been cases of back-lash when someone dared mention someone might need to do some further self- exploration or seek help. I’m not excusing the reluctance, just trying to give some background. I am all for questioning one’s self; questioning one’s sanity can be fun :). I just think there needs to be a balance between acceptance and well-intentioned, mature questioning. Sometimes someone says something that sounds utterly ridiculous to me. I’m opinionated enough that sometimes I’ll say something about it. That’s OK. If I say it’s absurd or someone else says it’s gospel, it’s just an opinion. No one is required to believe everything that gets written or said. It’s OK to agree to disagree. Question everything. I’ve wondered internally about the people who say they are angels. What service are you performing for what god/dess? That is part of my definition of angel. Sometimes it’s seemed that angelics were the next “Otherkin fad”. We’ve had others in the past; elves, weres, vampires, hosts and unicorns have all had turns at being the hot new race of Otherkin, where a bunch of people were discovering they were that race and talking about it all at once. I don’t know that all the angelics are or are not what they think they are, but that’s for them to figure out as individuals. I’m saying it’s OK for me to question, because it doesn’t affect them being what they really are inside, and they are free to disagree with me. We are free to disagree with each other. Someone had once asked “How can you claim to be ‘X’ and ‘Y’ if both ‘X’ and ‘Y’ are in opposition to each other?” Now, people have mentioned having past lives as opposing things, but that’s different than claiming to be two things that are in opposition. I’ve also been things in past lives that conflict with who I am now, and been a vampire I’m not real proud of in my current incarnation. I don’t call myself an elf-vampire because the two were and are in conflict for me. When I was a vampire it resulted in the elf being completely forgotten. After I died, and my soul had the blinders taken off (as happens sometimes after death), the dissonance between who I had been as a vampire and who I had been as an elf caused so much internal conflict that it caused my soul to split. The personality bits that had been associated with the vampire were flung far and wide. A variation along those lines: I think there’s a difference between saying I was something in a past life and that I am something. For instance, suppose someone once was a unicorn. How much applicability does that have in the here and now? To my mind, a unicorn is a being that represents Truth, unyielding fierce aggressive Truth. It’s near impossible to be pure anything, much less pure Truth, in this physical realm. It’s the nature of the realm. So while I could see someone saying they had been a unicorn and had some aspects influenced by it, I’ve had a hard time swallowing someone being a unicorn in this life (and that’s a topic that’s near and dear to my heart). Similarly, if I was a rock, a frog, or a stellar dust bunny in a past life, how much of that applies here in this world, in this form, with this mortal consciousness? An excellent set of questions for anyone is “Are you better off now that you know about your other identity? Has it helped or hindered your life, balance, health and well-being?” For myself, I can say that it’s been a great thing for health, balance, and self-confidence. And ultimately it’s a question we only answer to our own satisfaction. It can be fun to question your sanity, to explore yourself, your entire world, to experiment and grow. I speak from experience. Having the carpet of my reality yanked from under my feet got much more fun after I realized that I didn’t have to fall and flail – I couldRead more

The Otherkin ProblemWhat’s wrong with the otherkin community? Its not about discovery anymore.Read more

A Prepaved Path?As the community for those who feel they are not entirely human by nature grows, weRead more

The Power of The GiftThere is a reason (and often several reasons) why we often feel like we don’t fitRead more

Physically Human?I believe that the Otherkin body ticks a little differently on the whole, even whenRead more

Personal Subjectiveness“Ghod I hate being an elf! Bloody frolicking with pixies, perverted ogres, even theRead more

Otherkin Behaviour PatternsI’ve noticed several patterns that people becoming aware of their difference fromRead more

I am not a WerewolfI am not a werewolf. I am a therianthrope, an animal person, someone who identifiesRead more

The Shadow of MythThis is something I have been thinking about for quite a while now. Why do we chooseRead more

Otherkin &; Society: Waiter! There's an Otherkin in my Medieval Soup![Originally created for “Water Under the Bridge”, newsletter of the Incipient CantonRead more

Some thoughts on MediakinIt seems like no matter what subculture you’re a part of, there’s always somebodyRead more

Lord of the Rings movie reviewI was in wonder watching the Lord of the Rings last night. I had gone with my fiancee and a mutual friend. *sigh* It was just….wonderful. Rather than critique the movie, I will highlight my opinion on how the elves were portrayed, from the perspective of a reincarnate elf. Overall, I think the movie was really well done in all aspects (save the missing Tom Bombadil, minor point). I was very pleased by the portrayal of the elves. They looked, walked, acted and even spoke like elves. They were very remniscent of what I remember. In full elven form can look that unearthly (especially as in Lothlorien). That’s part of who we are. My view overall is very positive and awe-filled Even when speaking English the elves had an elvish accent. Rivendell, while very pretty and inviting looking for me did not move me as did Lothlorien. There’s a place that could have easily existed on Sel’ar, the way it was depicted. *sigh*. I found Eowyn’s voice to be very elvish in timbre. I was moved by her Voice when speaking the words at the river and her mannerisms. I have to give the cast credit for studying elvish with aid from Tolkien societies to strive for correct pronunciation. You’ll probably note that I have mentioned a lot of things I am pleased with and the lack of comments about things like Legolas’ hair color. Perhaps when there are more movies with elves in them, and when they all have the same quality in their portrayal of the elves, I will have the heart to be more ruthless in my critique of elven portrayals in the cinema. The critiquing also just does not sit well with my feeling of peaceful joy when thinking on the movie, and seems petty to me by that light (no offense to those who enjoy critiquing it). My experience of the movie was wonderful, I care to focus on the wonder of the movie rather than detract from that wonder by focusing on the not-quite-perfect bits. So overall, a very enjoyable movie. Bring kleenex not only for when the “sad” scenes happen, but forRead more

Shedding Light On The DarknessIt’s been questioned, fought over, and clichéd to the point of making me nauseous,Read more